Catastrophic- Looking Down The Barrel

by **Eedee** » Sep 5th, '13, 20:49

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Beat: http://www.shadowville.com/123139/genre ... shoot-outs

Eedee; Mr. DGAF

I walk across the room and make sure the door's closed,
I'm gonna need my privacy, and now even moreso.
I feel my heart through my torso...
And Lord knows it's about time, my life's ruined so slow.
And it's been leading to this point, sun rays
Gleam in from the shades, a sign of hope someday.
I just know I look down, and see the metal glint
Even though I let the devil in, I'm feelin' heaven-sent.
Malevolent forces, torture forming in your psyche
And it might be time so lets explore it
Grief stricken, knees bending, keep wishing
But I feel you pull me closer and I feel your squeeze gripping
We've triggered something bigger than us
The steel rushes to your mind, and the feeling has rushed
From your brain to your heart, I see you moaning slow
But you already wrote the note, it'd be insane if you stopped

I feel the need to cry, but my eyes are seeming dry,
Silently I jot my thoughts, I ought to not believe that my-
Only strength left is in my main phalange,
My temple tingles with all this pain and sadly
I'm fidgeting, like anxious, cantankerous
My lips are bit, I wait to lay waste to this.
Maybe six or seven years, we developed a bond
And you took me home for comfort, now we've settled upon
A resolution I'm uncertain is the answer you crave
But this is cancerous pain, time to go out with a bang
The fun stops, your lungs drop, the problems dismissed
Stomach in knots, the only shot that you get

I've been distant with my friends, shoved 'em away
So the heartache is lessened, I'm fuckin' insane.
I've been cravin' this moment, freedom at last
Feelin' dirty, lead showers will clean up my act.
Head’s clouded and you start to notice
All your problems growing feeling dread as you lock and load it
I stop to focus on bird chirps, they're outside
I doubt life would care, so I open my mouth wide.
The sound dies and life pounds, surrounding your brain
Lie down, them round eyes are drowning in pain
I hear the sound of my name, ringing in my head,
Thank you, my friend, for help bringing me an end...