For my hero. My grandma

by **neb121** » Dec 19th, '08, 01:38

I wrote something its on my blog on myspace. It's for my grandma who passed away. It's not a rap or a song.Although I do have a song for her on my new album that's coming out and I do write songs about her this is more of a story about how I feel. My grandma wasn't only my grandma but my hero. I want to share her with the world. She was a wonderful person,Amazing singer and an great grandmother. So I wanted to share what I wrote about her.This was about her and about the day she passed.

Grandma Judy aka Gumma(I used to call her gumma. just a nick name)

I don't think of a hero as spider man or batman I think of a hero as someone who fought for there life or accomplished something that they thought was impossable to accomplish. Or someone who helps out other people in need. In my life I had a hero. She was my grandma. My grandma was a singer. She wasn't your typical grandma. She was real young and helped take care of us since me and my younger brothers were babies. She was always there for me to hug me when I needed it to tell me I can do anything I set my mind too. She was always there for me for the good times and bad. I will never forrget all the memories we had. Memories that will stay with me forever and although I will never have new memories the one's in the past will stay with me. I couldn't of asked for a better person in my life. You was always there for me. A great mother figure for me and my 2 brothers. We was together all the time. I can name a million memories I have had the honor in sharing with you. All the sleep overs,Horse back riding lessons,Movies every week,Jokes,Games,The time you went on Nitro with me,The time you scared the crap out of Robbie and Gary returning the favor when they did it to you,All the times we went to see your shows,Your beautiful voice,All the talks we would have and most of all all the laughs and love we shared. I will never forget anything. You were and still are an insperation in my life. Your my grandma and role model but most of all your my best friend. When my grandma was 60 she was dianogesed with breast cancer. Now I was a little younger so I didn't know much about it. When I heard the news I kind of just said my grandma is a strong women.She's a fighter.She will get through this. My grandma never smoked ciggerettes. Her husband(my grandpa) died 5 years earlier from stomach cancer and he was a big smoker. I didn't know this but the doctors caught the cancer to late even though my grandma went for check ups and mamograms twice a year. She was always healthy. The cancer spread to her liver and they gave her a few months to live. I remember when her hair fell out she used to wear a bandana and i used to call her cueball. I meant it as a joke and she took it that way. She was always joking around. She never let the small stuff get to her. My grandma ended up living 3 full happy years. She went on trips and made sure to spend every moment with me and my brothers. We were very special to her and she was very special to us. I remember at the end i was over there a week before she got really worse. I got her some jello because she was too weak to eat anything else and she was shaking. But still I kept telling my grandma and thinking to myself your going to be alright. your to strong to let this disease stop you. I think at that point my grandma knew she was going to die and she just couldn't fight no more. On March 5th 2005 my grandma died with me,my mom,my brothers,her sister(my aunt) and my dad all by her side. I actually wasn't in the room when she passed but the night before we was up all night because she wouldn't stop moaning. I don't think she was in pain I think she was just trying to tell us she knows we are there. and she has to let go. I kept praying don't take her from me. But that night when she was up all night moaning I went into the bathroom and said god take her. I don't want her in pain no more. The next morning after i got about an hour sleep my mom sat down next to me and my brothers and told us she passed away. I couldn't believe it. I went into her room and layed with her for over an hour. How can someone so great and someone who enjoyed life so much be taken away like that? ill never forget her and all she has done for me. If it wasn't for her sister(my aunt) I don't think I would have made it. I still don't know how I am living without her. she was more then a grandma and role model to me. She was my best friend. An insperation. and most of all. MY HERO.