free me

[> Evil _ MoNkEy <]

it seems im going nowere
stuck here all alone
with no one here to hold me
no one to call my own

life seems so empty
staring at this screen
lost in my frustrations
holding in the screams

i may as well give up
theres no reason to go on
i only feel hate now
my love for you is almost gone

yet there is something
something that keeps me waiting
it gives me hope for a new day
and keeps my love from fading

hope of a better life
and a love thats deep and true
nothing is impossable...
not even getting to you

but until that day im forced to wait
alone and cold with my fears
and as i wait for you my dear
i shall shed my tears

so it is up to you my love
to release me from this pain
to free my soul and prove to me...
that all my waiting was not done in vein.

[> Evil _ MoNkEy <]

Wuts up with you?

im sad as fuck.... but... its a poem... dont over analize it... dont concentrate on the auther... just concentrate on the poem...... dont worry about my dumbass..... just tell me wat u thought of the poem

[MuNxMuN]

i liked this one best keep writing anna you're a talented writer

[> Evil _ MoNkEy <]

i liked this one best keep writing anna you're a talented writer

thank u.... glad sumone liked it

[> Evil _ MoNkEy <]

nice, but your sadness will be the death in you, literly

im afradi it already is...... it kinda feels like my spirit has been drained and the life has been sucked outta me..... and im drowning in my saddness and sorrow........ and he dont care

[neha]

nice poem

[> Evil _ MoNkEy <]

nice poem

thanx

[> Evil _ MoNkEy <]

nice, but your sadness will be the death in you, literly

im afradi it already is...... it kinda feels like my spirit has been drained and the life has been sucked outta me..... and im drowning in my saddness and sorrow........ and he dont care

Awwwww, I don't know how close you are or were to him, but I think others would agree with me when I say "move on". I'm not saying it in a bad way, but this happens to alot of us, and sometimes, as hard as it may be, we just need to move on, you know?

I'm only trying to help



Anyways, the poem was nice. Keep writing Anna, I think you're very talented

thanx... and i know wat ur sayin... and im tryin to... everyone keeps tellin me that... but its hard to move on wen i have no closure... he didnt say goodbye.,...... he just got mad and left, and hasnt talked to me since..... so its a bit hard to move on wen ur not even sure if its really over..... i mean, he didnt technicly say it was... but his actions, u know... i mean.... if a guy dont talk to u for no reason for a week, its pretty much safe to say uve been ditched.... right?

[> Evil _ MoNkEy <]

thanx... and i know wat ur sayin... and im tryin to... everyone keeps tellin me that... but its hard to move on wen i have no closure... he didnt say goodbye.,...... he just got mad and left, and hasnt talked to me since..... so its a bit hard to move on wen ur not even sure if its really over..... i mean, he didnt technicly say it was... but his actions, u know... i mean.... if a guy dont talk to u for no reason for a week, its pretty much safe to say uve been ditched.... right?

I've never been in a relationship so I can't say. There must be a reason on why he wouldn't talk to you for a week and not say anything about it. Maybe he was stressed or something, or just lost interest in the whole internet relationship, I really don't know, and can't say cos I don't know him like you (I don't know him at all). But the past few weeks, when you talked, was it unsual and diferent?

this is my first bf, period.... thats y i was waunderin, lol.... but um.... as far as losing interest.... he had 2 other online things, and one was long term....... so i dont think thats it........ and, things have been off for a while..... we havent had an actual conversation in months, and he dosnt talk to me the way he used to.... dosnt say the things he used to say..... and its like, he drifted so far apart from me...... its kinda akward...... as far as bein stressed... i have my suspicions.... i do know that somethin is up.... the question is.... how do i get to the bottom of it? thats were him not talkin to me becomes the problem..... last time i talked to him, his dad was watching the screen... and i think things like that r a lot of the problem..... but.... its not that hes not online.... its everytime i im him wen hes on... its always someone else... either his dad or brother in law....... so.... ya..... i have my suspicions

[Ivy]

That's so sad, and it seems lately I can relate to it. That's what makes it so sad and horrifying. It scares me to be able to relate to this, I don't want to relate to this. No offense meant to you Anna, but I understand this 100 percent, and I just don't want to be able too! It touched me in such a way it's terrifying, you know? Yikes, let me leave now while I'm ahead!

[> Evil _ MoNkEy <]

That's so sad, and it seems lately I can relate to it. That's what makes it so sad and horrifying. It scares me to be able to relate to this, I don't want to relate to this. No offense meant to you Anna, but I understand this 100 percent, and I just don't want to be able too! It touched me in such a way it's terrifying, you know? Yikes, let me leave now while I'm ahead!

lol... its ok... none taken.... and i know... it scares me too..... it scares me becus the reality of the whole situation is slowly sinking in... and its a horrifing revolation.... its like, my whole world and everything i anticipated is crumbling.... and it scares me to the point i cant breath... i just sit up on my bed and just cry and shake, looking for some hope... some sign... but it never comes

[ines]

+nice poem

[> Evil _ MoNkEy <]

this is my first bf, period.... thats y i was waunderin, lol.... but um.... as far as losing interest.... he had 2 other online things, and one was long term....... so i dont think thats it........ and, things have been off for a while..... we havent had an actual conversation in months, and he dosnt talk to me the way he used to.... dosnt say the things he used to say..... and its like, he drifted so far apart from me...... its kinda akward...... as far as bein stressed... i have my suspicions.... i do know that somethin is up.... the question is.... how do i get to the bottom of it? thats were him not talkin to me becomes the problem..... last time i talked to him, his dad was watching the screen... and i think things like that r a lot of the problem..... but.... its not that hes not online.... its everytime i im him wen hes on... its always someone else... either his dad or brother in law....... so.... ya..... i have my suspicions

Was he like.....really diferent? Do you think that maybe one of his family members were just pretending to be him at one stage? Cos like you said, everytime you IM him it's always a family member, so......that just came to my mind


If someone IM'd me when it was one of my family members on the computer they would either ignore it (mostly my mom) or be like "who are you? where are you from?" and shit like that they don't know I talk to people . Well actually, I think they do now lol, cos now sometimes when my mom walks in she's like "who are you talking to!?" lol. She doesn't care as much as my dad did. I hate how he's "over" protective . But he doesn't live here anymore so.....yey lmao


Anyways, I should shut up

lol... um... wen its someone else, they used to tell me who it was... but tonight, the only thing they said was, sorry hes in bed and then just signed off..... but theyr only on a couple minits.... so... i mean... its just weird...... and, its like.... i talked to him last night and the first thing he said, he was like... omg ive missed u and its stuff like that that just melts my heart, and i can never be mad... but he promised hed be on tonight and see me on cam, but i im him and i get someone tellin me hes in bed..... and it hurts... cus its kinda like he broke his promise... but im tryin not to take it too personal, cus that was probly his dad, and altho he didnt tell me, i kinda figured his dad dont want him talkin to me...... i mean, he has to like, sneak online wen his dads in bed, and has to leave if it sounds like his dad is getting up... i mean, he dont tell me... but i know sumthin is deffinately up, but it hurts cus i dont know.....

and ive thought sometimes it mighta been someone pretending to be him... but i seriously doubt it.... im just naturally parinoid about stuff like that... but im pretty posative someones been reading and deleting his mail, so i quit sendin him mail...... and now its like, we have no way to like, communicate wen hes off..... and i mean... im sorry.....

[AspirinE]

it seems im going nowere
stuck here all alone
with no one here to hold me
no one to call my own

life seems so empty
staring at this screen
lost in my frustrations
holding in the screams

i may as well give up
theres no reason to go on
i only feel hate now
my love for you is almost gone

yet there is something
something that keeps me waiting
it gives me hope for a new day
and keeps my love from fading

hope of a better life
and a love thats deep and true
nothing is impossable...
not even getting to you

but until that day im forced to wait
alone and cold with my fears
and as i wait for you my dear
i shall shed my tears

so it is up to you my love
to release me from this pain
to free my soul and prove to me...
that all my waiting was not done in vein.

Awwww, nice poem

[> Evil _ MoNkEy <]

ya... im not gonna worry about it sarah... i mean.... i cant just keep dwellin on it.... and sumthin did come up... he went to bed, lol...... but ya.....


and.... um.... thanks aspo..... i thought u didnt like my "emo" poems.... but, um... ya.... thanks glad it meets ur aproval