Final Thoughts (My Story) Pt. 1 of 3

[Ethos]

I was pissed off on the world a couple days ago so i wrote this. i took out some names of people i made peace with at school so yeah. tell me what you think. and it's not most to flow right. at least i wasnt trying to make it on purpose.


It's easy to commit suicide and it's easy to spit a rhyme,
But the difference between the two is trapped within the unforgiving mind//
Listen to me closely and you'll understand the confusion,
How many people actually understand what I mean when I say "confusion"//
Could you point out five people like it was a walk in the park,
I can point out one, me, and it's tearing me apart//
Let me confess something, something that could be the key to my disaster,
In my own world, I believe that suicide is the main answer//
What's better than the chance to end all the feelings of torture?
Nothing is, So I'd slit my own wrists just to end my torture//
You could call me insane, crazy , or weirdo in fact,
People lately have been causing the way that I act//
Friendships suck, and fake emotions like "love" do too,
But I wasn't lieing when I told Gwynne "I love you"//
I've been stabbed in the back too many times to count,
By the closest friends I have to those I always knew to doubt//
I'm in shock and horror, people making lies about me,
Then why don't you all put me on a feeding tube if you all hate me//
I ain't said shit about anybody, so fuck you Heather,
I cared for you too much to say that, and I know you knew better//
I'm pissed at the world, I hate everyone here,
Smack me around why don't you, see if I care//
I've been taught better by my own lovely mother,
The only one I'm supposed to hate is my own fucking father//
He walked out on me, fucked another little woman,
Then came inside of here, married her, and then told me of nothing//
Now I'm heading to the end of my used to be blank paper,
And I promise story, I am gonna finish ya later,
There's more to the story, this is only part one,
I'm gonna write all my final thoughts out, So I ain't done//