To only one deservin chick
The only one whos birthin my kid
But I feel as Im hurtin her with
A nervous personal burden
Ill tell you wut it is a minute a
Okay now Schyzophrenia
Im bent n a runnin a muck...in my mind
Like I dont give a fuck cuz its mine
But I feel as though Im
Sharin with a bunch a friends of mine
N a ton of others, Im fine!
But I dont like feelin like Im
Committin these mental crimes sublime
N Im, lettin thoughs crys out in my brain n my rhymes
Im tryin ta stop this dien inside
I dont like feelin like Ive already committed suicide
Like Im only alive in this other lifetime that Im livin on the side
But at the drop of a dime I find its been there all of this time
Ive just been lien to myself actin like I needed no help
I felt like I was belted by the devil himself
So I nelt before God n asked for his help
But I am happy with the hand I was delt
I just need ta learn ta manage myself
Im failing in health but all is well that ends well
So pray do tell do u think I fell into hell
I dont, but I think Satin rang his bell
n dwells on the misery of others
Tryin ta break the bond between sisters and brothers
Fathers n Mothers, sons daughters n there lovers
Some get hit hard or smuthered
N becuz I suffer, I mutter, fuck u sucker
Im gonna fight this n recite this, like its
My bliss since it is
In a sense its senseless
That I have'nt put n end ta this
So I send this message
Nothing is endless
Like a judge Im suspending that sentence
Becuz theres one exception
God in all of his infinite demensions
And of course heaven
N so Im mendin my mind
Instead of lendin it to the friends inside
bow ta this
worships miss u twist...ed like a god deamn Contortionist!
