Defeat Nyx

[gutawafang]

I will defeat Nyx.

Fuck LOVE.

It is a crime for ME to love.

My feelings are never returned.

Never.

Ever.

....

It is depressing.

It is very painful.

It has destroyed me over and over again.

The joy of loving is just temporary. Once it ends by rejection, it's over.

It is very sharp.

It feels like I have lost all the blood inside me.

I don't know how to deal with this.

....

Seriously, I strongly believed that love FOR me exists. But it's proven that love really FUCKS me up.

Love has caused me to...

even FEEL suicidal.

I've always laughed at others who commit suicide because of love but now, obviously, I'm the one about to kill myself.

I'm the one who should be laughed at for loving others unconditionally.

I'm the one who's at fault for expecting my love to be returned.

I'm the one...

who should die now.

........

Fuck it, i don't mind not being loved back if it's Leah Dizon. It's a different kind of love.

I'm right now over this bullshit called love.

PS: I type this shit here because I don't wanna let her read this in my blog. But then, it's pointless. Everything's over. Just like that. Love has killed me.

Sincerely yours,
Fish.

[Dark Blue]

Don't kill yourself over a girl man, i know its hard but u will get over her. your going through the same thing i went through just 2 weeks ago i tried to kill myself because of a girl, i ended up in the hospital stayed there for a week, got out, felt alot better about life and thought about how stupid i was to even do something like that.

you will find someone that loves you just give it time

[Terry_M]

What they both said man, it WILL get better, trust me, just give it time. It'll be really hard for a while but in the future you will be surprised you thought these things.