Thanks
Blu, and to anybody who said anything nice about me.
To anybody who said anything bad about me, thanks too - made me chuckle.
As sad or bizarre as it sounds this forum has helped me mature. I'm 21 now and I did a lot of maturing between... 17-20. Well, more-so than this forum, just, writing in general really. Writing is cathartic and you see your thoughts in front of you. And if you're a conscious and logical person, and you like to analyse, you can really shape yourself for the better through it.
Writing may be externalizing your thoughts but you can then see them reflected back at you and use them to your advantage to console internal flaws you see threaded through the writing. And you'd be amazed at if you go back and look at posts or things you've written years before...
One thing I noticed here is how personal I made everything. I sound quite aggressive a lot in general as I like to be assertive in the things I say. Not necessarily purposely, but, if I believe in what I am saying then I will argue it the best I can. As I expect the other person to as well. But before, I would sometimes needlessly insult or make it personal for its own sake.
I don't actually put much time into what I say by the way. Well, not intentionally, and never to begin with. I always intend to make a quick comment and then before I know it I've written 500 words and there's no turning back. As once I go down certain roads of analysis or discussion that I find too interesting to leave alone, I have to perfect every word and point. But, it can be draining and it feels like I often have no choice in it, which is why I post less now.
There are only a few really smart, honest, open and genuine people here I respect so far. I'm sure there are many hidden behind their 'Internet persona's' also but the only people who spring to mind are
AbramIsaac (as always), and uh... wow okay not too many others lmao. I think
One Mic is okay, it's hard to remember unless somebody really stands out.
And
Blu, you seem like a nice guy too. Cheers
