major depression

[Just Silver]

I do

And it's really the only reason I try to move forward

I've thought of suicide but it's very selfish

[MistaVijilantee]

Go for a run when you wake up - get your body into gear > than medication

[Just Silver]

That sounds like a halfway decent plan

Honestly I wanna get into this rap shit
It makes me feel alive at least

[TheVipBro]

I agree with the workout, it mentally helps by giving u something to look forward to and you're your own motivation, gives u more confidence too

[yoda you can call me]

What substances have u been on lately, Silver?

[Just Silver]

What substances have u been on lately, Silver?

Mostly alcohol and weed

But also gabapentin which I believe really helps stabilize my mood

[Just Silver]

I think I should honestly

I don't just because all the bullshit that you have to go through just to setup an appointment

[Supershade]

Running/working out definitely helps.

/Post a pic of your gf

[Just Silver]

Definitely I need a counselor or dr.

I really love you guys

[Just Silver]

Running/working out definitely helps.

/Post a pic of your gf

Lol why

Random af but yea

[yoda you can call me]

I'll just echo the statements of these. take a break and do something active instead, you'll probably normalize in a week or so. Don't be rash and ask for medication

[Just Silver]

But meds help me feel "normal"

[Supershade]

Cause you're addicted ?

[Just Silver]

Maybe so but being in a normal state of mind could help me work

I probably have a chemical imbalance

[yoda you can call me]

But meds help me feel "normal"

well obviously not if your feeling depressed now.. Pack all substances in for a while mang and if your still feeling like shit in say, 2 weeks, go see a doc