A Promise

[,-,'-{Bar}-',-,]

i dont know why im posting this and i dont know if anyone will even care, dont really care if the newbies to the forum laugh at me or anything, i made a promise to myself today after i found out my granda had a terminal illness and for some reason i had to write, its not a rap or a song or anything like that just words i typed laugh if you think its pathetic or think its gay i couldnt care i typed them and i feel like posting them so its not somehting i say but dont mean. its a promise to a man who meens alot to me and i will fufill it to the best i can. if you wanne take the time out to read the passage its probably goin to similiar to the one i read at his funeral.

my granda was a great man, not in the sense of a great man who changed nations or won wars but a great man who changed lifes and made peace in battles, he traveled the world and seen great places that not many people will ever get to see in there life but he had the chance to see them and he did. he was a family man after he came of the ships and a great family man he was, his opinion was always strong and he never let it not be heard but at the same time he was always there, and whenenever i or any other grandchild went of the rails he was the man to say those simple words to get us back in line, after i had a run in with the law my whole family was on my case i didnt go out for around 3 months and i felt as if whatever i did would go wrong i was scared to face him when i finaly did he was the one to put faith back into me, he told me when he was younger he had a run in with the law and hit a policeman got of with a light charge and knew to never do it again, he said we all make mistakes and have mis judgments and its what we do after that incedent is what defines us and he got his life together, i guess now that his life is coming to a end is when i see i need to get my life together. i feel aslthough a part of me is dying along with him and i really dont know what to think, he had a great influence on me and i know ive been letting him down, ive not lived up to what he knows im capable of, i am the man he knows i can be but i dont know if i can show it and pull through to fully be that man. i dont understand why i need to put these feelings down in words but it helps in some way. when i was younger i spent every weekend and any other day i could with him, watching cartoons that must have annoyed him to hell but when i got in on the firday night he had all of them taped so i could spend the weekend watching all the ones i missed, when i was young and scared to sleep alone he was the one who would lay with me untill i fell asleep and when my mum had told me i was to old for the dummy he was the one to sneek me it without her knowing, its small things like this ill remember once he does pass but more than that its how he made me know how to be a man that will stick with me, he did what he could in his life and took it to the fullest he was always there when his wife and family needed him and he always did what he could to help even if he didnt agree with what was getting done. i love him and i dont know if he'll ever know that but right now i promise to be the man he wants me to be and i hope i dont let him down.

[Robbie G]

That was beautiful.

I couldn't imagine losing a grandparent, and it seems like it would be easy to use it as an excuse to hurt yourself. It's good to see someone using it to turn there life around.

[James R.]

Man... that's the post of the year for '09. No one's beating that. Im so sorry to hear about your situation man. I hope to never be there, but I guess we all gotta get there right? You'll pull through it man no doubt.

[D@vid]

that's the post of the year for '09

thats about the third time u've said that. lol


neways, im sorry man. i never knew my grandpas. the one died b4 i was born and the other died when i was too young to remember him. i wish i could have grown up with one, cuz old men rule (sounds kinda weird, but its true). they are the ones that we need to help us grow as a person, as a man even. our dads can help somewhat, but having someone older is even better. they'll really tell u how it is. ur dad will just give u the broken down censored version of shit. not that i know from my grandpas, but just listening to some of my friend's grandpas talk, they def seem cool as fuck. good luck to him and hope u feel better man

[James R.]

that's the post of the year for '09

thats about the third time u've said that. lol

Naw the other ones were for '08. He already locked '09 down with that one. It's all a fight for 2nd now lol.

[neb121]

I lost my grandma and she was my best friend and a wonderful person. so i know what your going through. sorry for your loss.

[D@vid]

that's the post of the year for '09

thats about the third time u've said that. lol

Naw the other ones were for '08. He already locked '09 down with that one. It's all a fight for 2nd now lol.

http://www.forum.trshady.com/viewtopic. ... a&start=30


but that doesn't count. cuz that was my friend saying that, not me and u may have been joking when u said that was the post of the year. but neways, doesn't matter, just pointin smth out

[James R.]

Yeah I was joking. I have no idea wtf half of it even said lol. But enough spamming.

Bar, bro I lost my aunt in a pretty messed up situation. And her dying did a lot for me. It made me get my life together, it's the reason I started writing and ended up finding the one thing in this world I LOVE to do. Because he's made such an impact on you even though he may be gone in the physical sense you'll always be able to go to him within yourself and look for his guidance man.

[yoshi]

I'm sorry to hear that Bar, it's always a huge loss to everyone. What you said about your grandpa - it was beautiful and fit perfectly into this picture of a grandpa I've always had in my head, because I've never had one.. My one died before I was born, the other one - when I was like.. 2 years old? It's a shame I didn't really have chance to meet them and talk to them now when I grew up.. That's why I think you're really lucky to have a grandpa like that, who always was there when you needed him, who sneaked your dummy without your moms knowledge I guess the best thing you can do to honour him, is fulfill your promise and be the man you know he'd be proud of. And tell all the things you'd like him to know and that you love him now, before it's too late.
Whatever you do - I hope you'll pull it through Bar

[mcZu]

I'm sorry to hear that man. I lost last year a grandmother, I know how you feel.
You just need to stay strong and keep on going, and never ever forget that person, 'cause they will be forever in your heart. Good luck man.

[°[~CHR!$~]°]

sorry about that too...lost my grandfather too....terminal illness too...i know its sad to know somebody close to you is about to die (sorry could find any other words )
but like the person above said....movin forward and still keepin the person in ur heart...i bet he is proud of lil bar

[Slimm]

Good luck with it all man, nice piece of text.

[Kez]

Anyone who'd laugh at that is a sick bastard, even i have some respects

Anyway Bar i can kinda relate to you except it was my dad who died of a terminal illness rather than a grandparent. But same deal. So i suppose i can kinda understand.

Strong, honest words; loved it btw.

[,-,'-{Bar}-',-,]

i aint goni comment every post seperately, but all of your words mean alot to me, the people who i got on msn ill probly talk to about it and thank them personely coz it really means alot for the support, if i dont have you on msn, add me (davidbarclay2oo6@hotmail.co.uk) if you dont then thank you, i appreciate your words

[Tornado]

i aint goni comment every post seperately, but all of your words mean alot to me, the people who i got on msn ill probly talk to about it and thank them personely coz it really means alot for the support, if i dont have you on msn, add me (davidbarclay2oo6@hotmail.co.uk) if you dont then thank you, i appreciate your words

youre hardly onmsn nowadays

but sorry to hear bout that man, hopefully you bounce back strong and the Tr family is here 4 u