Dont have kids....Dont get caught by the police...

[LLockhart86]

Dont get me wrong, having a son is one of the coolest things that ever happened to me. And being completely sober has its perks but, damn!

But I used to get fucked up daily. Now I sit at home with my kid...and just sit here. There is only so much tv you can watch in one day without smokin any bud.

I dont know, I guess its just not been long enough, Ive only been completely sober for 7-9 months. Im lying, I still pop vicodins when I can find em...but Im talking about the adderall and the extacy and weed.

Just venting, wondering if anyone else is in the same boat as me.

P.s - Fuck probation.

[GoodGirlsGetGutted]

Forget the drugs.

Raise your son to the very best of your abilities.

Get addicted to playing with your child.

[LLockhart86]

Im not really trippin about the speed and x, I wouldnt be able to do that shit anyways, dont really want to. Basically I just wanna smoke some weed when I gotta sit here....

But I got random UAs and smokin some weed would fuck up all the progress ive made in my probation.

Not complaining, just wishing I could smoke some dope

[Jens14]

Find something else to keep you busy, something you enjoy.

[GoodGirlsGetGutted]

Are you saying you love weed more than your son?

[DrunkenDeath]

if that's true, i fucking hate you.

[LLockhart86]

Are you saying you love weed more than your son?

Talk about putting words in someones mouth.

No im not.

Nevermind.

[Jens14]

Are you saying you love weed more than your son?

Talk about putting words in someones mouth.

No im not.

Nevermind.

I feel you, you just want someone to know what you're going through.

[DrunkenDeath]

if you get back on the drugs, you're going to lay around doing nothing or stupid shit and end up neglecting your son.

[LLockhart86]

Thank you.

I dont really regret having a kid, now that he is here anyways. He's beautiful. And he cracks me up ( he's 3 months btw ). I dont regret it, I think I just wish i woulda waited a little longer. Im still young, and I can handle the responsibility...Its just tough.

Its a total life change in under a year.

Saying I love that shit more than my son is just dumb though.

I went from being a heavy speed/x/weed addict to quitting cold turkey, catching a case and having a son in less than a year. No treatment no nothing. No support. Just me.

I dont crave the hard drugs, I just wish I could smoke a little weed on my down time.

@Drunkendeath - Dont tell me what I would do. Im not like you (assuming your speaking from experience) - I was just as productive smokin bud as I was when I wasnt smokin bud so, speak for yourself No disrespect. But I held a job and a social life while high. Its called motivation.

[GoodGirlsGetGutted]

Are you saying you love weed more than your son?

He didn't say anything close to that

That sucks lockhart, here's hoping you can start smoking a little bit after those UA's are over with

If I'm not mistaken, the words "Don't have kids" are used in his title.

Warmer?

[GoodGirlsGetGutted]

I know why.

You're a smoker.
I'm not.

Of course I'll condemn the drug as you endorse it.

And my inqury to llockhart was meant to be taken more as a thought provoking, rhetorical question than an actual assumption.

[LLockhart86]

Thanks. Its looking good, I went from having to take a UA every 2 weeks because I was high risk. To every calander month after being clean for a while. To being off the color codes all together and now she just calls me in. I havent been called in yet, but she kinda tells me whats going on so I know...sorta.

I dont see here every month now anymore either, I see her every 2 months, she usually has me come in a week after I take my test so she can talk to me about it and shit...But she told me she would do this a couple times then put me on phone reporting where I call in the same day every month; say the 12th of every month. They'll have me take a test or not, but it'll be nice cuz Ill know when Ill have to take a test every month. So If I have to take a test the 13th, I can blaze a couple hits right after and give it a full month to get outta my system before the next time. I wont have to talk to my p.o any more either, its all done over the phone with a recorded voice or some shit

So, I might be able to toke a couple hits one day a month - in about 3 months from now.

yaayyyyy. Bitch of it is, I used to smoke a quarter a day, my tolerance was rediculous. I didnt smoke for 6 months then took a couple hits right after one of my UA's and was fucking blazed. And it was some weak ass reggie bush too. I was so high, so im not even trippin. 2 hits will be outta my system 2-3 weeks after smokin it so I got that to look forward to.