Well it's been a while since I posted anything yeah. After I finished TMA2 I wasn't sure what to do, and this project ended up appearing out of pretty much nowhere. It's called Rise & Fall, and this and "Under Attack" are both from it. Aside from one track produced by Big Ax-D, this entire album is produced by RiseFromTheAshez, who has done a fuckin excellent job; even though he'll probably walk in this thread and talk down on his own beat. Ignore him. And even though it's completely original production, it's still going free.
The album deals with the human race, the meaning of life, death and what happens after. It's very deep. All that good shit. All that shit that a good 3/4 of you will never bother to listen to properly I am fully aware. But this album is probably the least self-focused of anything i've done besides TMA2. There's only a couple songs that are explicitly "about" me. I've tried to stay vague for most of them, to have them apply to a more wide range. Rather than it just being an album about me me me. And there are a lot more mentions of "we" and "us" in this album. There are no tracks about how good a rapper I am or any of that shit, it's very unique. I don't know where it's come from to be honest, this is just what i've been outputting.
This song is one of the first I wrote for the album, I was trying to go for a bit of a different style and I wanted to make a song that had a bit of a message, or a song that seemed like it was actually talking to someone. The song also serves well to describe what I basically say throughout the whole album; it's not stuff people want to hear. And that I have no answers, all I do in the album is lament the state of things while offering no real solution.
Be aware, this track isn't like most of the ones on this album. I know a lot of the albums I do a lot of it kind of depressing stuff about my life. But this is genuinely the exception on this album, and the reason I chose to post it is because i'm so proud of it. And it took me a long time to decide. Even writing this I have two others I am equally eager to show. A lot of them are loud, dark sounding, lively and darkly humorous. I wanted to do this one to add a bit of sincerity to things (this track arrives very close to the end of the album, and there's only one other song that is "deep" or "depressing" called "We Promised Not To Cry"), hence why the beat sounds kinda upbeat and rockish. It's longer than a good half of the songs on here.
As always, Ax handled the album art.
Watch it on Youtube here
I know you have questions, why'd it turn out this way?
I apologise, I don't know what else to say
All the anger you felt throughout this tape
Is the result of my years taking my doubts away
It's all clear now, feels like I can hear now
But despite that, I still need to get my fears out
Or else they're gonna eat me alive
I'm puzzled, slotting in and piecing the lies
Why, oh why, oh woe is me
Why won't you let go of me
Just let me die, i'll testify
But God had better show his reasons
For what i've been through, what i've done
Why I just hate everyone
And why I would like nothing more than
To just block out the fucking sun
[Bridge]
Ask the questions
Get your answers
But you won't like what you hear
Wasted days and
Second chances
Running out as we are growing
We are growing, we are growing old
[Hook]
So ask away, keep asking away
But you will not find any answers today
In my head (in my heart)
In my world (in my life)
Turning around waiting to feel that knife
I miss this, when life was more than just a wishlist
And a ticking clock full of ailing symptoms
And I know you wanna know the answers
But you should know by now that you won't find them here
My life burned 'round me, I despise it
And from the ashes of that, I am what is rising
Just a kid trying to figure out what life is
But there's no-one to ask who won't tell me lies, so
I don't know what to believe, I just wanna leave
When I leave this world I know that very few are gonna grieve
But something's stopping me, oh the hypocrisy
It's fear that keeps my hands off the shotgun, see
And i'd leave this world if it wasn't for
All the people I hate, there is nothing more
I was never destined to be something that you would adore
That's why I draw joy from your hatred and fucking scorn
Ask me no questions i'll tell you no lies
The answers i'm forced to repeat I don't like
When you request them I beg you don't cry
This is how it is, and I don't know why
[Bridge]
[Hook]
So what will I do when I reach the end?
All the enemies and friends
Will all join into one, when I find my lungs
Won't let me draw my final breath
Morality, mortality
That's what everyone's telling me
Cause in the end, there's no escaping
No escaping, no escaping death
So I rage and I roar, I can't take anymore
But there is no running or escaping the scorn
Fuck praising the Lord, cause in the end
None of my problems will be made into yours
You're born alone, you die alone
Some men maybe cry alone
But I find that there's no tears left to cry
When you've just been left to die
[Bridge]
[Hook]
Thanks dude. 
