Liked this cut from Eedee's tape, so he looped the beat and I took a verse on it.
Feed: http://forum.trshady.com/viewtopic.php?f=38&t=171863
Song: https://soundcloud.com/mr-dgaf-1/alone-remix
[Eedee]
I wake up to a different day
I'm whisked away from all of this, I'm filled with hate,
I wallow in self-pity, what's with me?
I'm still ingracious
To myself in the form of threats to my self-esteem
And every night at dinner seeing you two
Seems like it's death to what's left of me.
Seeing her alone, I envision the two of us, Eric, move along,
I just wanna see you in arms of yours truly, but truth is, I grew apart
For when I see my best friends all happy and shit, leaning in
And we both look away awkward,
It's like the world is using you to tease me with
Dangling you in front of me, like ball on a string I can't quite reach,
I ask myself every day why on Earth would you be with a man like me.
I get choked up, you know what? I don't fuckin' need this,
The other half of me? You can keep it, I'm seethin', believe it.
You see with - somebody I can call my own, I'd be living life
Instead of cursin' the life I was given, fuck all this, I'm sick of mine.
Why do you think I wanna drink so bad? Did you think of that?
So I can forget this shit,
Did you come to see the show?
Whatever, I'm outtie, I'm destined to be alone.
[DGAF]
I sit back, picturing life as it strolls by
I wanna kick back, forgetful at times I don’t know why
….But I remember we’d chit chat
So I sit and I try to control time
And pretend I don’t mind when you get mad
At the end of the night we’d throw fights
….I wish you’d try and just hit back
It boiled over, oh boy it’s over
I feel the pain you brush off ya shoulder
You lashed out, the gun was holstered
I know you hope it don’t recoil on ya
….That would be a sight to see
….All that time you spent fighting me
Those nights pushing you tried booking
You said it so much, it was cry wolf and
I sighed pulling you back couldn’t move past
Thinking you might leave, but holding out
I won’t slow you down but either close your mouth
Or don’t bite me, then months passed and it turned to years
So much anger we yearned to spill
Forgotten, abused, you learned to live
Said I walked over you, so I burned the bridge
No looking back now, took for granted
You couldn’t back down, I wouldn’t have it
It’s love and war, we both made it shit
But want something more than we maybe get
Once adore turned to hatred then
Back into love, hurt and pain it spins
Like the world, I wonder which day it ends
But that’s what makes it a relationship
We see the ups and downs and when they come around
we do enough to salvage the relationship