The history of this track, was basically i heard the Jedi Mind Tricks track "Razorblade Salvation", and i loved it. So, being how i am, i opened it up in Cool Edit, and ripped the beat from the end and looped it. So no, the "Instrumental" to this does not exist on Limewire or anything. If anyone wants it, i can upload the instrumental i created for them in the Download Center.
ANYWAY.
Lyrically, this is pretty deep. Second verse the lyrics really tumbled out, and i mentioned some shit that's bugging me at the moment.
This track is PROMO ONLY, which means it's not ILLEGAL, as i'm making NO PROFIT from it. It's not gonna be on my tape, because that is gonna be completely produced by Big Ax-D, Tash8, X-Ray Productions, and a few leased Soundclick beats.
Credits:
Original Track And Instrumental: Jedi Mind Tricks
Hook and other vocals bar mine: Shara Worden
Enough talk, track time!: Razorblade Salvation - Kez
It's also on my MySpace..(though names are censored on the MySpace version)
Kez wrote:I know that times were hard
I know that you been feeling down
If you only knew how i'm feelin'
For you...
If i could take your pain
I wish that i could wash it all away
If you only knew how i'm feelin'...
I'm sorry if this song will piss you off because it's emo
I'm sorry for any friends i've lost, but there is nothing we know
No way we could know, my words confuse me and yo
Don't play with me, go away, i'll go crazy with flow!
I don't resort to guns, i resort to a pen
I'm not a baller, thug, just a kid with thoughts he should vent
I fall, just crushed, my means become distorted ends
There were many mourned and loved, lost in the war of Kez
I thought a lot, cause beats stir thoughts, you know how much words cause?
A lot of pain, worse than being beaten, hurt, just
Leave me be, i need to appreciate life i have
Which i do, i use my music to grab life with my hands
But just because i'm not a kid starving in Africa
Dosen't mean my life is perfect i got people startin this crap again
Insulting me, my music, certain parts of my raps and then
With my lyrical razorblade i start scarring the bastards' chests!
It's better to die
And sleep
Than never waking sleep
Then linger on
And dare to live when the soul's life is gone...
[Chorus X2]
You've been running around, so long
You've been hurting yourself, too much
You keep messing around, with darkness
You're the one who's losing..
I'm not a wrist slitter, but this shit's enough to make me think it is
An acceptable response to live being one big shit pit and
The beast inside of me, has been stirred
So when i write raps i DAYDREAM and see those bastards hurt
So i'd like to rap about something that is worse
----, you can't jip ---- just because he has a bird
The best you had was ------- and she probably snapped in thirds
When you bended her over, and this shit never is over
It would be if you pissed off, but ------ brings you over!
And this isn't done for laughs, and this isn't done for jokes
This is done cause you're annoying and you will not fucking go!
Of course there is some respite, i will not become this life
I ignore the shite, sit alone with my thoughts at night
And this is a sampled beat, it's a promotional track
-----, tomorrow we hope that you won't have come back!
It's better to die
And sleep
Than never waking sleep
Then linger on
And dare to live when the soul's life is gone...
[Chorus X2]
You've been running around, so long
You've been hurting yourself, too much
You keep messing around, with darkness
You're the one who's losing..
I know that times were hard
I know that you been feeling down
If you only knew how i'm feelin'
For you...
If i could take your pain
I wish that i could wash it all away
If you only knew how i'm feelin'...
I know that times were hard
I know that you been feeling down
If you only knew how i'm feelin'
For you...
If i could take your pain
I wish that i could wash it all away
If you only knew how i'm feelin'...
lookin forward to ur tape 
this is the same mic i've been using for months, just that i edited the pella myself this time.
