Has anyone ever experienced an extreme higher state of consciousness that came naturally without using drugs? Well its happened to me before and its so hard to explain just what happens, but I will do my best to explain it.
The most intense feeling I ever had was when I tried Ecstasy my first time. Well this higher state of awareness feeling was probably 1,000 times more intense and vivid. I felt like I was in heaven, not redeemed or condemned. I was right in the middle and I felt like I was at the very center of existence.
My emotions and feelings were in the most extreme of all category' so I felt like I was in the middle experiencing them all at the same time, I was extremely balanced and unbalanced because I wasn't controlling it.
It was like having no thoughts or every thought at once. Like having no memory or memory of everything that's ever happened. Like what it must have been like for Adam and Eve to have bitten from the apple of good and evil to have their mind opened up to a whole other form of existence and knowledge. Or what it must have been like before they ate the fruit, not knowing.
I became aware of my environment like nothing I ever had experienced before. My thoughts and the environment were connected completely. Whatever my thoughts were they were in tune with everything that was happening as if I was controlling everything or everything was controlling me.
I wasn't just myself I felt like I was everything in my sight at once like everything had the same mind or something. It was like my mind was controlling its own thoughts and knew how to predetermine what came into my sight so that whatever I would see had relationship to what I was thinking.
For example: When I went into this tunnel under a bridge at first my thoughts were positive and it was brighter. As I kept walking my thoughts became negative and it got darker and then glass started to appear on the ground. When I saw that, I turned around and walked away and my thoughts became positive again, but I wasn't in control of what I was thinking the environment was it seemed.
Then I came to a river where I seen a black bird across the river just standing on the rocks and for some reason I felt I had to go over to the other side to get closer to it. When I finally got close enough I seen that it was just a black hole in the rocks.
Then my body was directed to one certain spot on the rocks next to the river were I sat down, it was a place where my thoughts and entire being was in harmony with everything. For some reason I was convinced to drink from the river so I did. Then some birds starting coming near the river on the other side. I saw one get in the river so I asked it "are you going to take a bath?" then he seemed excited as he dipped under the water to take a quick bath. I was talking to him and he would move and chirp as if we were communicating somehow. Like with our consciousness' and not just with the words I was speaking to him.
It was all very intense as it was happening I just remember thinking why is this happening, there must be a reason. I also remember when I was sitting by the river that I was in the presence of God, Jesus, and Satan. I remember talking to Satan telling him that I couldn't help him because in my mind, my heart, or spirit I was receiving the message that he was asking for my help. After that it rubbed off but my mind still wasn't mine to control. I was in another form of consciousness for about 3 months and in the middle of those 3 months is when this extreme part happened.
It was only after my near death incident is when I snapped out of it. I don't know what the purpose of this happening was for or what I was supposed to do, I just hope it made me a better human and that I didn't let God down, because I really felt like the enemy and his forces were either trying really hard to stop me from doing something, or trying really hard to get me to do something. Which they did because after that is when I went to the psychiatric hospital and I began to falsely preach on Satan's behalf. But then God strictly corrected me and I snapped out of it like I said.
I really wonder if anyone has ever gone through the same trial and felt the things that I felt and if their mind has gone where mine went. I think this higher form of consciousness is something that many people will encounter sometime or another but they will have different results and experience with it.
Anyway thats about it. Whatever it was I don't have the answers to only God does..
Last edited by Halftongue Dre
on Oct 6th, '14, 21:53, edited 10 times in total.