I can't decide shit. I have suicidal thoughts and shit.
For example, I can't even fucking decide if I wanna be a nice guy or a prick. I can't decide who I love. Today I got pizza for lunch..threw it away for tacos...threw that away for pizza. Yelled at a friend, apologized, yelled again.
I feel so fucking emo right now. All my friends are slowly starting to hate me I'm sure. Because I treat them good one moment shitty the next. I only have one friend I can manage to keep my cool with and that's my best friend.
It's affecting everything. I use to say fuck multis when I wrote, focused on flow. Now I abandoned my good concepts and flows for multis. I've tried going back but I think i've literally lost my touch on that.
I think I'm slowly wasting anything and everything away by being so fucking contradicting.
Sorry for venting. Didn't want to, but that could change.











