Its probably all the weed. ( And by the way, the last shit you smoked was NOT laced with meth cuz if it was, you wouldnt have been feeling so blue...you would have been feeling quite the opposite actually ).
At any rate, I have this feeling that your the type of guy, maybe a kid still, who skates by on money thats given to him. Maybe from a parent or grandparent...maybe even a girlfriend. And with this money, since you dont have to work, you sit around and smoke weed and play games and play on the internet and shit. And its all fun .... while your high .... but eventually this shit gets old. And you feel useless and bored and wish you had something to do, but you dont wanna get a job cuz, fuck that. And it depresses you.
I could be wayyyy the fuck off. But just based off the shit you've posted this is how I see you. And the only reason is because I used to be the same way. I would sit around my house and just smoke smoke smoke, and the first high in the morning was dope, I was in a great mood. But by like 3 or 4 oclock in the afternoon i was all burnt out and bored and shit. I felt depressed as well.
At any rate, even if im not right at all about this, I DO think that you smoke too much weed...that shit depresses you if you smoke as much as I think you smoke. It also depresses you when you dont have any money because of it.
Get a job, only smoke at night, make it a point to do things during the day that dont involve gettng blazed, and take that st. johns wart.....it helps
