A lot of people here seem to think I think "my opinion > everyone else's" which simply isn't true. Just because I express my opinion to the fullest, doesn't mean I think it trumps every human's alive. Just because some of you can't be fucked to speak properly, don't think that because I can it means I'm above you. In truth, I OVER-ESTIMATE people, not the opposite.
IN reality I have a shitty view of humanity, in terms of my hope in them. But when dealing with individuals I've caught myself countless times just assuming they're not as dumb to as presume X or that they will surely just know Y. This came to a head when I went to a psychiatrist about ADHD and... Well, I shouldn't even have to overestimate a psychiatrist, they're supposed to be the professional. But what I discovered after 30 minutes of talking to him was that he knew nothing about ADHD (he admitted this), thought of it as pretty much a non-existent / non-worthy mental disorder and pretty much dismissed it.
YET, despite knowing NOTHING about this - He expected me to take his totally invaluable, worthless opinion on it as golden. I felt like kicking him in the face. As my issues were my life and I was placing them into his hands with an assumed trust which he just spat back at me like a fucking ignorant piece of shit. So from that point on I learned never to make an unfounded assumption that somebody is living up to their title. I never really did place much value in titles or societal roles anyway, but I at least thought this guy would know about a disorder he was fucking diagnosing me on.
It's truly unbelievable how stupid and ignorant so many are. And I'm not even saying this arrogantly, I'm saying it realistically. To all those here who think I think I'm above other people, learn to fucking read. If these people bothered to read my fuckings posts they'd see I always take into account whatever opinion is at hand and simply retort to it. I don't think I'm above anybody, in terms of class or stature or that type of vibe. I'm from a shit hole city full of drugs, violence and ass-holes. I've got no superiority complex on that level.
People on here confuse explaining yourself well or typing a lot with being arrogant or thinking your opinion matters more. I'm long-winded, I'll give you that, I over-explain things etc. but that's not the same thing as what they're accusing me of. Also, with all that said - Morons do exist and when you're faced with one, treating a moron like a moron isn't arrogant or thinking you're above it. It's just appropriate measure. Treat idiots like idiots and respectful people respectfully. I don't bad-mouth or talk 'above' people I like / respect here. Where as somebody who has a complex issue - Does it to EVERYBODY, quite clearly I don't.
I also am not pretentious which is what some of them say. All I'm ever trying to do is write / communicate as clearly as I possibly can. I'm the same in real life. I'm just trying to present the thoughts as crystal clear as they're appearing to me in my own head. So if I use a more descriptive word it's in an effort to emphasize something as best I can, not to try and sound smarter. I'm just trying to put across what's in my mind, the best way I can.
Ironically, I do the exact fucking opposite of what some claim. I over-estimate people - but that means I'm giving people the utmost intellectual respect whenever I can. Because, it's not fun to converse with yourself in circles, I want to be speaking to people who are on a level with me whenever possible so why would I talk down to anybody or think I'm above them. It's self-defeating in respects to my aims of interaction. I never talk down to people, if I don't filter myself that means I'm treating you with as much respect as I treat myself because I'm assuming you'll pick up and understand everything I say and why. If I was dumbing myself down, THAT would be thinking I'm above you. Because that would mean I'm assuming you wouldn't get me on 360% so I better give you half that.
I haven't got the energy to be pretentious. Writing a lot or trying to explain yourself well isn't pretentious. I'm just an obsessive thinker so if I say or type something that I feel doesn't make what I had in mind come across as strongly as I first thought it - It annoys me, I have to push the thought / point / whatever to the extreme before I'm satisfied. I spend so much time trying to just analyse myself and life, do you seriously think I have the fucking time to put across some wannabe image? Those are the people I spend time purposely alienating myself from. I can barely be bothered to get out of bed or keep breathing, so if you think I can be fucked to try and act in a certain way when I'm not like that you're very very mistaken.











