Ok so let me explain the concept of this song,im doing this song about the friend of my friend who died by drug overdose..jennifer my friend just couldnt get over his death and always feels guilty sayin that if she didnt leave him (she was his gf) he wouldnt have talked to dirty girls and got to use drugs with them and abused them drugs to forget the pain of jennifer when she left him but abused drugs and died =( and i personally know him just a bit, so the first and 2nd verses and chorus's are as if jennifer speaking and the last verse and chorus are as if me speaking..jennifer heard the song and she loved it and aprreciated it very much..and yes the girl voice u hear in the intro its her voice i had them saved from an msn conversation and i just cut them and put them, check it out!
feedbacks on this song are really appreciated...... r.ip colin he was only 20 
listen/download here:
http://www.zshare.net/audio/83604286aca61550/
download here:
http://www.mediafire.com/?qcvdz953vg5ibk2
Lyrics:
(Intro)
You Know How It Feels..
When You Lose Someone ( You Really Loved)
Why Did You Have To Go?? ( Answer!!)
(Verse1 )
my name is jennifer and im feelin heart broken
feeling sad everyday cuz i left my heart open
for somebody who just died and left me hopeless but im hopin
that he ever comes back one day,i feel that i'v got to say
this game is just not to play,becuz i cry in my way
that i'd die and i stay tellin lies to myself
yellin why it doesnt help,i dont need nobody else
i feel so lost,its dark this place im fallin at
so im callin god,please bring colin back
but i guess he doesnt answer,maybe ill ask nicer
well life is a *ride..guess he was a fast *driver
always full of surprise and nothin is guaranteed
nothin is promised to no one,we refused and then agreed
been amused with a greed,yeah i guess that i was selfish
i let down the one i love,at that time i couldnt help it
..cant forget it ,i regret it,now its hard as a shellfish
(Chorus)
it feels like im always down
just because colin is not around
i just wanna hear him makin a sound
could somebody dig him up now off the ground
everywhere i go he follows me
but i know that in my heart he will always be
i just wish that i was *blind cuz its hard to *see
that hes gone forever...please god set me free
(Verse 2)
i need a shoulder to hold to,i gotta be a solider
i wanna get over,im gonna go stronger
it doesnt feel right,and it couldnt get wronger
i been crying everynight i cant go for a longer
im tryna suicide,because im dieing inside
i dont even realise,that i really am alive
this life,is just a death *circle we are all in (Who's *turn??)
colin,i hear you calling,every mornin..i just keep on fallin
can somebody pick me up,ill bury myself alive,would somebody dig me up?
man it really broke me up,just to see colin in casket,what the fuck?
and i feel like goin crazy,that no one could ever save me
nobody could even feel me,im just goin nutz lately
you aint deaf and you cant hear me,i aint scary but you fear me
and,you aint even blind but you could never see it clearly
life punished me severely!
(Chorus)
it feels like im always down
just because colin is not around
i just wanna hear him makin a sound
could somebody dig him up now off the ground
everywhere i go he follows me
but i know that in my heart he will always be
i just wish that i was blind cuz its hard to see
that hes gone forever...please god set me free
(Verse3)
my name is redzek,and i really feel bad
im sad enough to tear,so im cryin on my rap
its crazy what i hear,im just dieing to attack
this motherfucking little BITCH who got colin to use the drugs
and then abuse em till he died,i wont lie im not a thug
im not a killer but dont push me,if i saw them drug dealers
in a club,the fuckin pussies and cowards would have to fear us
and never ever come near us,they'r the reason colin died,
jen you said it was your fault but we both know that u lied
i know the pain you feel inside,your brain and heart did just collide
its insane,im in your side,let it rain till you arrive
to the part where the sunshine,im sure that u'll be fine
dont search what u can never find,what you could never define
colin is restin in peace and will forever be divine
he is in a better place,he knows you love him..stop cryin
cuz im sure he loves you too,hes watchin you without a sign
(Chorus with other lyrics )
hes dead and gone for now
god bless his soul,i dunno how
or why so dont even try to ask
his love for you will forever last
no tears could now bring him back
so jenny stop cryin and tryna act
like it was your fault,cuz for a fact
i know that it wasnt,it was just the trap
and the trap was just this life
its sad and i know how it feels like
you feel bad,and it cuts you like a knife
its rough,be tough and try to fight!
so think about him fore you sleep at night
and i know the pain is deep..so many tears dried
in this ride you might lose passengers,keep walkin
get over,or to yourself at night u'll be talkin
the volume of the pellas are higher than the beat? i thought so too ,but only in the last hook the pellas werent even high enough i felt ..hmm so yeah thanks for feeding