weight

by **Ivy** » Apr 9th, '06, 00:41

Thanks Sarah, but I don't keep track of the carbs and fat in the food I eat. I eat what I want when I want, you know?

by **> Evil _ MoNkEy <** » Apr 9th, '06, 00:45

TaylorakaTiGGi wrote:Thanks Anna. Yeah, my father, his fiancee', and my psychatrist, yes I see one, are thinking about hospitalizing me at NC Chapel Hill's Eating Disorder Clinic. I see myself sometimes tiny as a broom, and I can see what my father and what everyone is complaining about, but then I look in the mirror and study myself long and hard, and I see someone who is on the heavier side. I have a lot of problems, I have to leave all my books in my classes because I don't have the strength to carry them anymore, it's just to hard. My dad doesn't cook for me anymore, because he knows I won't eat it or I'll just pick through it. When we go to restruants like Golden Corral, or Ryans, or some kind of buffet restraunt, my dad will talk to the manager before paying so he can get me on the 12 and under list, because I don't eat 12 dollars worth of food, I sometimes can get it free if the manager is understanding enough. I eat the fattiest of foods aswell, chocolate, cereal, junk food, and all that, and it's all I eat. It suprises everyone that I don't gain weight, and everyone says they wish they were like me. I tell them don't ever wish something like that, because you don't want to go what I go through, and I certainly don't want you to be in my shoes, because you don't know what it's like. We were in Walmart today buying groceries, and we me and my dad were loading up on 2 liters when I reached up to grab one, my shoulder popped out of socket. My dad slammed it back into place and walked off towards the men's restroom, I could tell he'd been crying when he got back and finished shopping. I admit, sometimes I want help, and I'll ask for it, but my dad says just eat, there's your help. I try to convince him it's not that easy, and when he turns me down like that, I just say fuck it, and don't want help. You know. And thanks Anna, I'm sorry about your sister, and thanks for being understanding.

that actually brought tears to my eyes reading that. ur shoulder poped out of its socket? omg....... thats like...... i dont even know wat to say to that...... but i got a theropist too, lol.... so ya..... um..... god..... and he just slammed it back in? wtf? that had to hurt....... im sorry TiGGi.... i mean... i really truely am.... and i know u dont want sympathy.... and i cant really empathize with that..... but..... i just.... im not gonna bitch about bein fat now..... i mean..... they say its harder to lose weight than to gain it..... but with ur condition... i think its gonna be easier for me to loose than u to gain....... its like...... im just..... im blown away by this... i mean..... wow. ok... im sorry..... im dun

by **Ivy** » Apr 9th, '06, 00:55

Thanks Anna. Yeah, my dad had no choice but to put pressure on my shoulder and pop it back into place. And yes, I'll admit, it did hurt. And it won't take nothing for me to gain weight. I just have to be forced to gain the weight. Otherwise, I won't try, I won't allow myself to. And I know it'd be harder for you to lose weight. And sometimes, you need a little sympathy, just to show you got support from people who don't even know you, but care about you through certain things that you've done.

And Sarah, I don't look at fat or any other things like that. I don't care. I know what makes me gain weight, and that's eating "normal". I've seen what my mother was like as a teenager, and what she turned out to be like, she had her stomach stapled she had gained that much weight. And I don't eat breakfast, I can't even force myself to eat then, or I'll get sick and can't hold it down.

by **> Evil _ MoNkEy <** » Apr 9th, '06, 01:19

ya sarah.... it depends on the person... but it is extremely hard to gain weight if ur severly under weight..... and if u dont eat.... then wen u do start to eat (and this is true... cus it happened to my sister) u gain it all back, plus more.... becus wen u depribe ur body of nutrience, ur body goes into starvation mode, and ne food that u put into ur body.... ur body will hold onto and try to preserv cus its programmed into our genes to help us with famnie..... its a primitive survival tacktic r bodies use...... so in a sence, ur not really gaining nething by not eating... ur only making a lot of problems for urself.... but once again... its not really ur fault TiGGi, becus ur sick... and its sumthing u cant help right now.....

by **Ivy** » Apr 9th, '06, 01:24

I think I'll always be like this though, I don't see me changing anytime soon... :unsure:

by **> Evil _ MoNkEy <** » Apr 9th, '06, 01:38

TaylorakaTiGGi wrote:I think I'll always be like this though, I don't see me changing anytime soon...

it may feel like that now... and thats how i feel... i feel im gonna be fat forever, and i can picture me thinner, but i really cant see me changing...... but if its sumthin u really want, u can change.... but its not gonna be easy.... and its gonna take time..... but i have faith in u... ur a smart girl..... u know ur body better than neone else, and u know wats best for u..... so ur the only one that can decide wat u wanna do and wen u wanna do it

by **Ivy** » Apr 9th, '06, 02:11

> Evil _ MoNkEy < wrote:it may feel like that now... and thats how i feel... i feel im gonna be fat forever, and i can picture me thinner, but i really cant see me changing...... but if its sumthin u really want, u can change.... but its not gonna be easy.... and its gonna take time..... but i have faith in u... ur a smart girl..... u know ur body better than neone else, and u know wats best for u..... so ur the only one that can decide wat u wanna do and wen u wanna do it

So true Anna, but sometimes one only needs a push or a jumpstart to get them on their way, you know?!?

by **DarkMan** » Apr 9th, '06, 10:34

well, i have a body type where its hard for me to put on weight....

so i can eat anything i want...mcdonalds, hungry jacks, kfc, and any kind of junk food and not put on weight..not a lot anyway..

by **neha** » Apr 9th, '06, 11:40

DarkMan wrote:well, i have a body type where its hard for me to put on weight....

so i can eat anything i want...mcdonalds, hungry jacks, kfc, and any kind of junk food and not put on weight..not a lot anyway..

is that possible??? :unsure:

by **Christina** » Apr 9th, '06, 13:21

yeah, my brother is like that too.. he eats enormous amounts of junk food

and other shit, and hes still slim... :confusion:

i want that too :'(

by **Ivy** » Apr 9th, '06, 15:05

Christina wrote:yeah, my brother is like that too.. he eats enormous amounts of junk food and other shit, and hes still slim... i want that too

I wish I was like that, then maybe for once I'd eat appropriatly...

by **rory** » Apr 9th, '06, 15:15

DarkMan wrote:well, i have a body type where its hard for me to put on weight....

so i can eat anything i want...mcdonalds, hungry jacks, kfc, and any kind of junk food and not put on weight..not a lot anyway..

for me it's the same thing,i eat so much junk food and chocolate is like my addiction which i can never live without but i still don't put on weight