Lifes a Dream (feedback, now with a 2nd verse)

[BigBoss]

So any feedback would be great, I wanna make this a full song, tell me if it flows nice to you, anything really.

Verse 1
In my heart I got a malady,
cause reality has been really been kickin the shit out of me with brutality,
and my family ain't been helpin cause in my heart all they are is a fuckin cavity,
I can't wait till I'm gone livin in my own damn isolated municipality,
livin life full of depravity's,
But untill then lifes causin me huge fuckin calamity's,
givin me a low self sense of vanity,
which is why I'm customed to a high level of profanity,
I don't see a inanity if we all just gonna die anyway what's the point of makin a life long strategy,
Hell, maybe I'll visit Italia and check out The Cinque Terre, and get a Bella Italiano donne to marry me,
but that ain't gonna happen, cause this is all just a dream...

*chorus* (I'm still working on it, tell me how you think the chorus should go)

Verse 2

Yea, when I had the fall she wasn't there to be my supporting wall,
She made me wallow in my sorrow with a bottle of fuckin ethanol,
When I was slowed to a crawl she was spendin my money at the damn mall,
Feelin like I was on my sepulchraul she couldn't even bother with a fuckin call,
All she ever did was make me feel gall,
Lust is the only thing that kept me as her fuckin thrall,
But damn I can't believe I was another stupid fish to get caught in her trawl,
If she could see me now, flowin like a waterfall,
See, one day my mind stopped with a squall,
And I decided it was time to several,
She wasn't worth it at all,
With her I felt cold and short like fall,
But now I see more clearly cause now I'm standing tall...