Mat Demaz- My Recovery

[mdemaz]

The finale of the album really.
I go all out with emotional shit.
More energy, anger and harsh delivery involved.
Even slipped in some singing.


Lyrics:

Mat you'll never amount to nothing
your life is falling apart man
what are you gonna do huh
huh
you're nothing without her
you're nothing man
nothing at all
just move on dude
fuck everything I've ever done comes down to this
one shot man
somebody help me
help me
help me

as i sit in the recovery waiting for the wearing off of the anesthetic
I look back at my life and it was motherfucken damn pathetic
i explode on the mic and suckers just flash in the pan
I just feel like I wanna scream yell and stab and bash some man
I keep dreaming about girls I knew and high school
it's driving me insane making me cry like a fool
mainly because it's all about this chick I knew
without her I wouldn't be shit or in this booth
I wish I could see her again and smile but shit changed
she doesn't even know if she know I exist and it's deranged
I miss her badly but she don't fucken even know
even if she did she'd probably get creeped out I dunno
it keeps pounding at my head I'll never find sanity
I can't sleep anymore waiting I'm nuts my life is damn beat
I cry each night and feel severe agony
I'm never be happy even when I try to be

(Chorus)
my recovery it'll be slow and hard
my recovery seems soo far
my recovery starts here and now
my recovery these tears will keep falling down 2x

these mountains of darkness caved in
turned me into this monster drove me insane but then
something kept me going to keep creating damn music
even until now I've never been able to understand it
it's like I got some fucked up connection with her in my head
I find that more disturbing than the nightmares
each day I'm short of breath fighting for air
this whole situation is frying my head with despair
I miss you soo badly and I feel so dumb
the darkness builds can anyone help me nope no one
it's an endless cycle of pessimism and hatred
every time I saw you with other dudes my heart just breaked shit
the animosity I've had to defeat I keep spazzing to the beats
not giving a fuck and gradually not caring about fags that tease
I turned into a fucked up wreck why did I feel this way
these demons made me a meal eating me and stealing my sanity away

(Chorus) 2x

the year was 2006 since 2007 I've been feeling like this
I wish it would stop and I could find love but it's no use to try to fight it
I can't love again when my heart is in the past
this is real talk I wanna try to fix this but can't
I've fucked everything up like I thought I would
when all I wanted to do is be happy not cry it's no good
I'm surprised I'm even still alive
I would of taken the cowards way out with suicide
I'm at the point when I just wanna find her just to say hi
and then walk away and put this to rest and make this pain die
I gave her all my demos she gave me inspiration to make more music to impress her
but at the end everything became a mess uuh
the clock goes tick tok I can't stand drove me nuts and it should
errr I was a nerd as a kid too nice for my own good
even talked to a guidance counselor in late 2006 but nothing could save me
my heart was torn to shreds and I'd never be the same g

(Chorus) 2x

LOF:
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[Nefarious]

I thought i might aswell give feed since i listened... i hated it, that is all, i wish you wouldnt rap lol

[mdemaz]

I thought i might aswell give feed since i listened... i hated it, that is all, i wish you wouldnt rap lol

Eh come on man, at least give some sort of constructive feedback instead of just shitting on him.

Emotion was there, but your flow was still iffy at parts and the layering is still making it hard to hear you at times. A step up but you gotta be more confident and concrete with your pronunciation and flow.

That's mainly my only thing I gotta improve..Just my accent fucks everything up..
I bet if I spoke American everyone would say "OMG DOPE SHIT LOLOLOL!!@!W#@EDREGRJ!"
I love the hate though, it motivates me to step up more.

The album is done btw, come and download it:
viewtopic.php?f=76&t=130142&p=1778654#p1778654

[l33chie]

I can def feel the emotion in this, I don't think there's nothing wrong with your accent, it's how you use it that matters. I can find a lot of dope rappers with the same accent as you that kills shit. I honestly liked the song, it's very emotional, not a lot of people can relate to it so it's easy to hate on it. Stay up.

[Instant Legend]

has nothing to do with your accent; i hear sick flows from foreign cats all the time. you're still just a little green, thats all. you've got the fundamentals down for the most part, now its about practicing over a variety of different beats, finding the style that you really dig, find the energy level that fits those kind of beats, and it'll all come together

keep elevatin homie

return the favor please:

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[Cobo Black]

Bro...you GOTTA leave that delivery alone. Thats not you man....at ALL. It didn't seem natural, it seemed forced and came off....I don't know how to put it..but it came off wrong.

I don't like saying this, because I know how hard people work on stuff. But you need to hear this so you can fix it and start making better shit. The hook was waaaaaaaaay more natural. You had some ok content..but you were forcing some of the lines.

I would totally re invent myself, don't try to sound like eminem...its not working. I would explore more of a singing rhythm, kind of like chamillionare does...that might suit you more. Don't take it too hard man, thats what we are here for...to not be "yes men....and tell you what you need to work on so you can be the best you". If you completely sucked I wouldn't waste my time critiquing you...so don't give up brother!


Returning the favor is appreciated: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TLbtBNke0mQ

[Phantom]

you have a shit load to work on. and no, im not hating. for me to hate you i would have to know you, and i dont know you at all. im saying this purely unbiased and honestly, you sound like you started rapping a week ago. i wouldnt be such a dick if you didnt come off so arrogant in the earlier posts. people like you are starting to slowly ruin this board. take a note from some of the vets here like ax or tom chambers or sajjad and thats what the elite members of the board sound like. not this

[mdemaz]

Um...Thanks for the...Feed...

I gotta admit that this is probably the worse song on the album, but fuck it.
I mainly wrote it for me to begin with.
I've done songs probably 20 times better than this.

It took my up until now to realize what true flow is, it's not forcing delivery..It's just flowing with the beat.
I can assure you that on my next record, things will be different.
I've been rapping for a decade now..If that helps clear that up.
If only I didn't turn a blind eye to the rap community when I was a anti-social cat.
The people where I lived worshiped me like a god, now I just think they are dumb.
Now I feel dumb.

And how am I ruining the board with my music?
If anything, there's not enough music on here.
I come off as anything you want me to be, whether it be arrogant, cool, or a terrible rapper.
It's a matter of opinion.

Anyway, thanks for the feed...I'm just glad anyone said something.

[noggerton]

My posts were deleted.

Anyways it was horrible

[mdemaz]

My posts were deleted.

Anyways it was horrible

Why, thank you for the constructive criticism cock breath.

I'm over this shit anyway..I finna re-record it.

[Le Tunisien]

you have alot of works to do,you seem to be at the start, with practise you will learn is all i can tell you friend

[mdemaz]

you have alot of works to do,you seem to be at the start, with practise you will learn is all i can tell you friend

This track is old as fuck man, I've already stepped up dramatically.
But thanks for the feed though.

[Solace]

I've been rapping for a decade now..

Woah...Maybe it's just not your thing.

[mdemaz]

I've been rapping for a decade now..

Woah...Maybe it's just not your thing.

Quiet you..
>_>