especially after my nana died and i seen what it did to my dad
anywae witch family member would you hate to lose the most, obv you would hate to lose any family member ever, but theres usually always one
and i contradict myself when i say idk who id say, i dont see my grandad a much as id like to but i dunno what id do if he died, hes one of the few people in my family that had a sucesfull career and has honour, obv my mum aswell, shes the only parent that sticked by me, sometimes not so great but still
its hard to say coz id hate to lose anyone, but some i feel i would get over in time but my grandad or my mum idk itd be as if a part of me died aswell 














