I'm Sorry-Suicide Note

[Emadyville]

http://www.zshare.net/audio/56481765af8dcdb9/

This was written as a suicide note. Don't worry I'm fine this was just a concept I came up with that I never heard done before and when I found the write beat I decided to do this.

Lyrics:
I knew I was different I didn’t think it was bad,
And if you all knew how many drinks I’ve had,
In 3 minutes you can all say you missed him,
Cause I feel this cyanide workin in my system,
I was gunna put a gun to my mouth for ya’ll,
So you could see the portrait of a genius on the wall,
I couldn’t put words together for anyone to see it,
But this time you have no choice but to feel it,
You hear my final words and you’re all here ta witness,
The last minutes of my life and as I spit this,
I hope you all understand I didn’t take the easy road,
I took the hardest path and all this shit was thrown,
At me for years and tears I was forced to hold back,
Had me blinded so this shit I could never throw back,
And you will know that as you applaud I’m gone,
And if you cry I’m sorry I just couldn’t hold on…

I hope my friends know I didn’t just do this,
This was just so many years of bein influenced,
By the evil in people I tried to get away from,
But now it’s here and my final days come,
I guess being a nice guy had left me damaged,
Everyone just used me you all took advantage,
Friends I thought were friends then shit hits the fan,
And then I’m left by myself all alone to stand,
I tried to give you hints shit was getting me down,
What friends cause I don’t see you cowards now,
Do you know what its like to live life scared?
In the mirror everyday my eyes only showed fear,
I had to be a man so I would never show tears,
And I learned loving a girl would get you nowhere,
I am a fuckin man that’s why I never showed tears,
And I tried loving a girl but see I ended up here….

These will be the last words of a dying breed,
Individuals are dead so it’s my time to flee,
But this shit must be said before I depart,
I always loved my family with all of my heart,
I”ll miss playin ball and I will miss this art,
It sucks it was the verbal form of emotional scars,
And I know I have to say this cause inside it hurts,
But girls in my mind you honestly were first,
I always knew one girl would see who I really was,
Haha I guess that just shows how silly I was,
I feel bad I degraded them like they all meant jack,
When in truth I loved you all and now I resent that,
So I’m done that’s it someone throw a party,
Blast this song and remember I am sorry,
Everyone who hurt me at all made me do this shit,
All I can say before I die is to let my music live…

[killmaster56]

Very nice. I liked it. A lot of emotion in it. Maybe a bit slow. but i liked how i could feel your pain through the song

[Emadyville]

Thanks, and yes it's slow because this is obviously an extremely sad song, i would never think to do this fast.

[gutawafang]

WOW. I love ya dawg.

[bills23]

that was awesome man keep it up

[Emadyville]

Thank you all for checkin it out

[enjinn]

good shit man...there a jmt song about suicide... heres a link http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DKyf4IQ8Mbs ...i like this song you did fam

[<Stiiccy>]

hey man i liked this...

but heres what i would have done...I would have dubbed all the verses...all the way through...and added a really cool reverb effect in it..

Slow songs like this sound a whole lot better with reverb...

If you would do that shit it would sound PERFECT